We’ve received some letters that aren’t actually “coming out” letters, so I’ll start to post them here in the news section. Here is the first:
Hi Mom,
It’s been 5 years almost to the day that I lost you, the hardest part about this is wondering if you hear and or see me from where you are. I can only hope you
can and know that I love you so deep and miss you everyday, but if you can hear my thoughts you already know that.My life this year has been very up and down, more downs then ups , my love life is pretty FLAT to say the least , this whole issue about learning to love
and trust again is very big and a hard personal issue to conquer. When I lost you I lost not only my best friend and mother but I lost my apart of my soul that
can’t be replaced.There are times I sit at night (which is usually the loneliest of times for me) thinking of you and the things we used to talk about, your advice was not really
considered at the time, but now I wish I would have listened to some of it, your wisdom was soulful, I have been threw so many changes in my life since I lost you and
a lot of confusion, I only wish that you where here to confide in.You know that I still can’t look at your picture yet without breaking down and crying a river of tears, I know this sounds so petty lame but, I feel lost and
secluded, but on the other hand I know that is my own fault for isolating myself for so long on an emotional& physical level.Mom I will end this with a poem.
Love and hate run hand and hand
When I think of you I think of the love I lost.
When I think of you I think of the hate for the man who caused this lose and wish him all pain at whatever cost.
Time can only mend the pain I feel they say, but for better or worse that day has not yet come and I still await that day.
The sun rises and falls for every new day and with each new day I pray and say to god “why me?” Why did I have to be left alone with this pain; it gives me
nothing to gain.Only the fondest of memories of you can warm my heart from this pain and for that I try to focus on and for that reason I know that this hate will eventually fade to
something of the past.Till then I will hold strong and stay in faith that this pain will end.
If I ever see you in heaven again know this to be true my love for you as my mother is very strong and will last forever last.
You’re Son
Darren
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